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Well it’s been awhile since I last logged in WOW! Time flys! I’m down about 4 pounds from where I was the last time  I logged in.  As always its a rollercoaster. I went to South Carolina a month ago and before that trip I cut my calories to under 1,000 a day and worked my tail off walking in the mornings and running at night! I dropped down to 152 lbs and felt AMAZING - not to mention a little more comfortable in my bikini on the beach! I wasnt even craving food like i normally do - but when i got back to Iowa and back into the routine of work and being stressed i gained a good 5 lbs back.  This past week I’ve gotten back on the workout train. I’ve worked out 5 times in the last 7 days so I’m feeling pretty good.  I’m starting to realize that I’m going to have to work out the rest of my life in order to maintain a “normal weight” however its pretty hard because I already eat so Healthy from being a vegitarian that I feel like i’m always on a diet.  I think my body has just leveled off to what I eat and my motabolism with it! Grrr.  But I ran 3 miles last night and felt AMAZING afterwards- so that was great!

 What else?! I bought a new car - Toyota Scion XD 2008 - Love it! first new car I’ve ever purchased and it blows my old car outta the water so I’m a proud owner!  Things are going really good in my relationship wth my boyfriend.  I feel like hes getting over some of his committment issues and is really starting to be okay with “needing” me in his life. Which is a huge step for him!  I just love him - and he makes me happy- and while thats still a constant I’m going to stick with it!

I have a family reunion this weekend - dear lord there is going to be so much bad food - ugh and party mix - my biggest downfall - I’ll just have to go running by the lake in okaboji - that should help even out what I eat!

Alright back to work - glad to see I’ve got some new buddies and hope to keep up with this site more.

 Oh and I watched the biggest loser last night! So inspirational! I wish I had the time to go to a camp to lose weight!

Well its finally friday.  The bf called me last night and was in a good mood - I let him know I wasnt to happy with him not calling me the last couple days and he acted as if it was no big deal! Oh well. Went to a balloon glow last night at this Mansion downtown. They have about 10 hot air balloons out on the lawn with a live band and food etc. and when night falls they light up the balloons - it was gorgeous.  I went with an old friend and we had a blast catching up so it made for a really great night.

 What didnt make for a great night was the fact I ate 3 pieces of pizza, shit.

I think my body was just really craving some fatty food because I’ve been depriving it.  So idk I’m okay with it - i’ll just have to go work out on a friday night like a loner at the gym haha.

 I head to the Des Moines arts festival tomorrow which i’m really excited about so that should be an awesome time! And it will be lots of walking lots of sun and hopefully I eat healthy!

 I have 2.5 weeks untill my friends wedding to drop 10 pounds so I really gotta start kicking it in gear! Possibly thinking of doing 2-a-day workouts like I used to in HS and COllege - haha we’ll see if I can drag my ass out of bed to go running in the am - like thats going to happen.

Hope you all have a fabulous and healthy weekend!

Well I’ve worked out the past two nights so I’m feeling good about that! Tuesday I pushed myself really hard and then last night was my relaxed workout of just 32 min walk at 3.7 mph and then some light weight training and crunches.

 I’ve been eating healthy and watching my portions still cant really feel a difference - I’ve felt bloated - like usually when I’ve eaten healthy my stomach gets pretty flat and I dont feel uncomfortble in a tight pair of jeans…ha! (if thats possible) However my stomach still feels full - no matter how little I eat.

 Love Love Love Crystal Light drink packets to pour into water - the strawberry flavor is my favorite - but dont get the mixed berry - it seriously is disgusting!

I’ve been writing in a journal lately and its really been helping.  I realize that the guy I’m seeing has a huge impact on my self  esteem.  If things are going great with the two of us I feel great about myself…however if things arent going well (say he hasn’t called since monday - which pisses me off) then i get down about never finding the guy of my dreams ect.  I try to convince myself that if i just relax it will all happen in good time- however one of my biggest dreams is to be married with a family and if that never happens it will be one of the biggest failures of my life!

 okay off of the sad crap! Looking forward to the 4th and being in good health and around friends.  I’m going to an arts festival this weekend in Des Moines - which will be fun, I’m an artist so I love to look at other peoples work! Its so inspiring!

Oh side note from tuesday night at the gym. So i go at about 8pm and I get on the treadmill, start running and no one else is on any of the 12 treadmills in a row…So i’m running sweating trying to look like I dont have a big short weggie up my ass and this pretty hot young guy tan and about 5′11″ gets on the treadmill right next to me.  Um hello motivation.  I ran 22 minutes instead of my usual 15 because hottie bo bottie was making me feel like i had to match his time. Not to mention he got on the treadmill right next to me when there were 10 to my left and 1 to my right open…um yeah too bad he didint ask for my number! Bummer. I’m keeping my eyes peeled for him in the future - and maybe wearing tighter pants to the gym tonight…ha Im pathetic! 

Wishing you all a successful thursday - its almost friday - and I dread the weekends and the food they make me want to eat - hopefully I fill them with fun and not food!

later guys!

Alright this new blog thing is confusing me - so many catagories and things to figure out just so I can type about my weekend - eeek!

 So lets see.  Friday I was exhausted - I went to my bf’s place thursday night and he lives an hour away so the drive home in the morning is always long not to mention getting through work - blah.

 Took a nap on friday night after work and ate some subway for dinner - Have i mentioned how much I love subway - I try to treat myself to it one day a week cus it feels like I’m eating fast food! And also since i’m a vegetarian there arent a lot of fast food options I can enjoy besides a salad or my favorite a cheeseburger without meat..I always hold up the driveup lanes - I suck.

 So went out to the bar on friday around 9pm and tried to keep the drinking light.  Just had to captain and diets so hopefully thats not too bad.  Weighed myself saturday afternoon and I was down to 159 so just to see the 50’s made my day! Went dress shopping for a wedding coming up which really wasnt bad at all - most women dred shopping - specially jean shopping - however I was pretty successful found 4 dresses that will work now i just have to choose and return:)

The part of my body that I dislike the most are my arms - I have a pretty flat stomach and never really worry about tight tops but my arms make me look way heavier then I am. sucks cus its so hard to lose the fat there.

I’ve also realized that I eat when I feel lonely.  My bf and I are  together again and this is our 3rd try.  Hes affraid of commitment and its just been the wrong time for both of us the other times.  We’re very much in love but it hurts my feelings when he doesnt want to take me home to his family or show me off to friends - I sometimes feel like I”m being hidden - and thats never fun…just wish he could be at the place to want to commit to me and be really serious and stop getting so scared.  But then again we are only 23 so we have a lot of life left to live so taking it slow is pretty smart (just frustrating at times)!

Hes really helpful though - he used to be a body builder and is now a successful engineer - ha go figure! Dont usually find engineers who bodybuild but it makes him pretty unique!  He has lots of good tips about getting in shape and what to eat how to stay lean- and is always very complimentary - however he never pushes me - he says if I want to change i have to do it on my own…sometimes i need a good cheerleader - boys dont get that!

I swear men can eat whatever they want and never gain a pound! I eat some animal crackers and you can practically see the circus on my ass the next day!

 Sunday I spent helping my parents around their house with yardwork and such however we ate out at perkins and I had a breadbowl salad - shouldnt have eaten the whole breadbowl but it was so damn good -I ate a light dinner but felt like hell the rest of the day.

Really hate when i let myself down and cheat then I feel like shit.  But todays a new day had a healthy breakfast and lunch and staying on track -cross my fingers I get my butt to the gym tonight- cus i’ll feel so much better when i do!

Pretty excited i’ve added lots of people on here as buddies and its fun to read about your journeys as well - looking forward to all of our success’!

Yesterday I did great - went to the gym after a light dinner and worked my tail off.  I work out at the MAC and they have an all female lifting and running room so thats nice - no guys starring at me.  Weighed myself this morning and I’m 2 lbs down - I would imagine mostly water weight but I’ll take it! Hopefully much more to come off!

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Just uploaded my goal photo as well - crazy it was just taken 1.5 years ago…dang.  I look like a camelion.  I naturally have dirty blonde curly hair, and I’ve dyed it reddish brown and wear it straight a lot now..hoepfully when i lose the weight I might go back to the blonde it always was fun…ha!

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Alright off from work - ready to relax!

So I got bored at work today and decided to check if there was a site out there that would help to motivate me in getting back into shape.  I’m not too far out of shape - I naturally weight around 155…but I’m up to 158 in the past few months which doesnt make me happy.  1.5 years ago I weighed 140 and I really felt good about my body and felt comfortable in a bikini and in everyday clothes.  I’d really like to get back to that weight so I have about 18-20 lbs to go.

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From the age of 11-16 I struggled with anorexia so dieting is always hard because naturally I just want to not eat in order to drop the pounds fast.  My lowest weight was around 100 lbs and I’m 5′8 so that wasnt healthy at all.  I’m glad I got help and have recovered from it, and I do love myself the way I am - however I dont like feeling weighed down and lathargic all day. THIS NEEDS TO CHANGE.

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I started at a gym 4 months ago and lost about 13 pounds and felt great but me and my ex boyfriend got back together right around that time and I’ve managed to gain most of it back - (gotta love going out to eat and being happy)!! haha.

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I started my new diet on monday which is portion control and making smart choices about what I eat.  I’m a vegetarian so that limits my protien and I struggle to get enough!  However there are a ton of new option for meatless meats and they’re a lot tastier then they used to be. (I’ve been a veggie since i was 10 yrs old)

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I’m tryng to work out (run 30 minutes a day) and lift weights for 45 min about 3-4 times a week so far I’ve ran once this week - gotta get into the gym!

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Alright work is over - thats my blog for the day - i feel better.